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Ferguss
Trying to be Strong
30 posts
Jun 11, 2010
1:03 PM
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Hope your feeling well today. Yes I am 39, my husband is 50 and I want to try again. We have put things on hold for financial reasons. But, God bless my husband. He says he doesn't care how old we are. We have 4 children, My stepdaughter is 22, also 10,8 and 2. The miscarriage was and still is very hard on me. I know people think I should just let it go. They haven't been here. I feel like another baby will make the hurt go away. I just don't feel right ending on this note. I know what another baby brings. My older kids are just starting to take care of themselves. I know if I carried to full term, I would have a 3 month old and a monster 2 year old right now. It's hard being a mother some days and I wonder why I just cant let it go, Why add more to the mix. Call me crazy, but I don't care. I love my kids. I just don't want to end on a sad note. I dont want to be sad on the date I lost the baby, on the date I would be due, on the date I got pregnant. I want to be happy that God blessed me with one more child after giving one to him. And thats my story.
Tell me yours.
Jenn
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fergus55
7 posts
Jun 12, 2010
12:23 AM
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it makes it hard to for me when my husband has had no children...as much as he loves my children it just isnt the same..i look at alot of women my agae that are obese they drink and smoke and they have normal babies so why is it that i am none of those and i still loose two pregnanies..i think sometimes i just get angry with the world..never in my wildest dreams did i think i would have been even planning more children at 38 but after a marriage breakdown and now been with mynew husband 4 years we want nothing else expect to love another child of our own.. we only decided to try again last year as i was still unsure at first if i wanted anymore children.. when we decided to try i bascially feel pregnant the next month we couldnt believe it after 12 years of not being pregnant..i'm sure it will happen but hope its not too far away..i am feeling alot more tired and i think a pregnancy at my age does take a toll on your boday i was 23 with my first pregnancy and felt amazing...oh well i hope and pray for success again and hopefully in a few months we both will share some exciting news...RIP RUBY born sleeping 2/5/10 at 15 weeks 5 days gestation and my other angel baby lost at 13 weeks gestation 13/8/09..i miss them both dearly and have ruby buried in our garden i speak to her alot and still cry often
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